It's RAYA!

Happy Eidul Fitri (:

this is, my most fav pict of the year...and a brother is missing from that picture...
Love it so much... (:

Raya 2013

Selamat Hari Raya. (:

Marriage?

I really don't like it the idea for me to get married to people whom I've never known.
and because of some people who kept telling me to get married at this age, I refused to be matured.
I'm sorry, but I just can't stand. Please, I'm just nineteen and they told me to get married? Like seriously..please don't!

Yes in some Malay novels that i've read storying that people who married even unknown to each other will eventually became happy ever after, but in real life, it may not works that way. in the really early beginning i just clumping together hatred towards whom they're matchmaking me into, how can i just accept that singular person one the other day? i'm sorry and please don't do this. ):

Seems so.

It seems like I'm pouring all my thought and du'a here..it's not that I'm showing to world without praying to Allah..it's just that i want to write it down.journal it so that when i read it again,i would regain what regretted.mostly,blogging is when i tears down....

Sad

Sad..i'm totally sad..and as most of the times...this time too, i'm sad coz of me behaving like a 8 year-old girl.. I don't deserve to be with them..i don't...n coz of this misbehaved which i regretted every second up after the action,i thought i'm not deserve to be who i am..Allah..forgive me.

Not Good Enough

I'm sorry for being not good enough to be a good daughter either a good sister. )":

Purdah jugak?

Ana mimpi...Allah3..apakah ini petunjuk?
Ana mimpi..Ana mula pakai purdah..siap umi jahit lagi..bukan setakat itu..siap satu famili lagi sokong Ana pakai purdah...
Allah..apakah ini...
Yea,ana tahu...
Ramai yang menyuruh aku berpurdah...
Termasuk abang sulung...
Kakak juga ada bertanya..
Mak saudara...
Abang tengah pun ada mengusik..
Para sahabat Ana, lagilaaaa...

Allah3....apakah ini...?
Perlukah...masihkah aku akan berpurdah setelah aku faham waqi' dakwah di Malaysia belum sesuai dengan cara berpurdah..
Tambahan lagi, purdah di Malaysia ini semacam 'trend'...
Di mana segelintir golongan berpurdah tidak menjaga akhlaqnya,tidak menjaga ikhtilatnya...
Tidak juga malu mempamerkan mata galaknya terpampang untuk seluruh dunia menatapnya...

Allah3...apakah ini petunjuknya..?
Allah..hanya Engkau tahu betapa ujian yang Engkau berikan kepadaku...
Hanya Engkau yang tahu..

Allah3...apakah ini petunjuknya?
kukuhkanlah...Ana tidak mudah untuk keputusan ini...
Ana takut juga, setelah berpurdah..Ana jadi seperti mereka yg setelah berpurdah, didorong syaitan untuk meng-upload gambar manis mereka...

Lagi satu....
Takut juga....bila pakai purdah,lagi dipandang orang...
sedangkan setakat ana xpakai purdah ni, setakat ana masih kuat menundukkan pandangan ini...ana juga berjaya menundukkan pandangan lelaki lain....cuma terkadang,memang ana selalu diusik...
Cuma, runsingnya....
Bila berpurdah, makin dipandang kerana itu minoriti...
Kerana sceptically lelaki selalu ingat perempuan berpurdah ni cantik2 semuanya....Allah3...)":

Ana terfikir juga..
"buat apa Ana pakai purdah,bila purdah itu makin mencantikkan?"
Allah3....berikanlah petunjuk.....|':

Kalau ana pakai purdah, ana nak pakai macam ni...yang rapat di mata,tutup dahi,tapi pipi xtersorong2...maknanya bukan pakai dgn tudung rapat dan rata ke dahi la...segan...selendang pun anaxsuka...